MALAYBALAY CITY (MindaNews / 31 Oct) – No regrets about my decision.

We had our recollection today and among the many subjects discussed, this topic made the deepest impression on me.

Since the beginning of this school year, I’ve been trying to figure out what my strengths, interests and weaknesses are. I’ve been
evaluating myself so I could decide what course would suit me. Making decisions, I’ve come to know, is not on the list of my strengths. I’ve asked for suggestions on what career path I should take, but the answer I always get is “choose something you have passion doing.”

The problem? I don’t really know what I like doing because I don’t do much except eat, play and read. I don’t think any of these would be an ideal job.

I thought I could spend the whole day figuring myself out, but things don’t always turn out the way we think they would. A few minutes after lunch break, we were called back to school for some corrections in our research paper. My group mates, Angelica and Jangail, and I finished early since the only corrections made were on the dates of the forms.

I stayed in school though they already left because I waited for my other classmates to finish. Not all of them were finished yet but they told us not to wait for them anymore.

At about two o’clock, we went back to the Folk Arts Theater together with my classmates who had finished their papers. We arrived when the topic “True Love Waits” was just about to end. It probably was an interesting topic, but I really did not mind not being able to hear its entire gist. For me, the title of the topic already spoke enough of its content.

A few more topics and activities followed. The last thing that took place in the theater was a band jam. The songs played were praises to God. I enjoyed this part of the program because I liked the genre of the songs the band played. I wish we could have stayed longer, sang more songs and just be with the people who made many chapters of my life amazing longer. But it was already time to go. Time, I never could get enough of it. I don’t think anyone ever will.

The sun was still setting when I went to bed. I closed my eyes and the worries I have of the future came rushing back to me again. I have seven more months in high school, seven more months to decide and to discover what I want to do. Each second brings me closer to the inevitable moment of deciding what route to take.

Life is full of ironies and confusion but the truth of His promise resounds in every beat of my heart and in every gasp of air I take. I
will not walk my way by mere sight. I will journey with faith, with the belief that whoever is watching has carved a road just for me.

(Anthea M. Mordeno wrote this piece while she was still a senior high school student. A DOST scholar, she is currently enrolled as a first year chemical engineering student at MSU-Iligan Institute of Technology. She is a member of the College of Engineering debating team and a staff writer of Silahis, MSU-IIT’s student paper.)